The Process of Selling Out

From Raging Against the Machine, to Working for the Man.



[pre-gifs] “…So, she [Paris Hilton] was a very wealthy woman, [initially] not that well known and then she gets to mega-stardom. How? The sex tape. Which was made by her boyfriend at the time, who was married, and thirteen years her senior. She sued to try and stop it [the tape’s circulation] and she couldn’t and it became the best selling sex tape for two years on the porn market.”

Dr. Gail Dines addressing porn culture and rape culture’s intersecting roles in patriarchy


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Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.


A Quick Jump to Present Day and a Preview of the Future

With a near 3 year old and another one on the way, my outlook on life has dramatically changed since my introduction with parenting.  Kids really show you how to let go of all the unimportant crap in life.  They teach you to live in the moment, to live in the now.  How good it feels to un-shoulder the burden of the unimportant.

She was an alien, really - a sort of eating, pooping, tantrum machine - and he didn’t understand anything about her species.

—Christopher Moore

Time with My Daughter

I was able to spend over six months at home with my baby girl Harper.  Looking back, I don’t think I’ve ever been happier.  Just staying home and taking care of my girl.  Breakfast and Lunch.  Baths and Playtime.  Being able to have alone time to connect and bond with my child. 

Oh, and being abe to keep the house clean.  That was beautiful.  There is a Zen quality to cleaning and having a spotless environment.

Of course I spent some time looking for jobs.  You have to when you are getting paid that unemployment, don’t want to get audited.  I searched for jobs everyday while Harper napped.  I swore to myself that I would not just take any job just to be employed.  I needed something that was going to be for the longrun.  But every job that I found  was not paying enough.

Basically, it made more sense for me to stay home with the kid due to the cost of daycare.  We would have been losing money if I had gone back to work at the pay being offered at that time. 

So, that is what I did.  I looked for jobs part-time and I focused on my growing baby full-time and you know what, I really found some peace.

The soul is healed by being with children.

—Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Another Stint in Unemployment

In November of 2012, once again, I was laid off. This layoff came after I watched over half of the company’s workforce get let go.

In 2011 the fracking industry had a booming year. This boom gave way to companies ramping up workforce, expecting 2012 to be the same. Unfortunately, 2012 was not.

It was November of 2012.  I showed up on a Friday morning, they let me go.  I called my wife to tell her, she almost acted as though I screwed up and lost the job.  After talking for a bit, she understood that it wasn’t just me, it was most of the workforce.

I had one thing to look forward to, I get to stay home with my baby girl.

You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.

—Walt Disney

Going Downhill Fast

At first, with the arrival of the new Customer Service Manager, things were going great.  She would come to me and ask questions and really make me feel involved.  I was the bosses right hand man.  And I enjoyed this.  I felt as though things were really looking up for me and one day I would have a higher position with the company.  I was being molded for something bigger and better.

Then, somewhere along the way, things changed.  She stopped giving me work, she stopped coming to me for answers to her questions.  She stopped inviting me to meetings.  She had me start writing procedures for my position.  She started to ignore me, like she was too busy.  Other higher ups started to ignore me too.  The VP of the company would always come talk to me when he was in town.  The VP of Sales would always ask how I was and what was happening with orders, etc.  Even my first boss, the Sales Manager, would call me into his office daily to discuss the business.  Then all at once they stopped.

Then the new Customer Service Manager hired a new Customer Service Technician.  A female (not that that is a negative).  Her friend from a previous job.  My replacement.  This is why my manager had me start creating standard procedures for my position.